Fun, full of life. An artist. A teacher. Someone I remember looking forward to knowing more.
Life got busy. Summer came and went. I saw her in passing at church a few weeks ago and remember saying to myself "I'll catch her next week."
Two weeks ago this Wednesday, she had a horrible migraine that left her seeing stars. She went to the doctor and they discovered a golf ball sized tumor in her brain. The doctor at UAMS literally had her surgery planned by the time she got there for her second appointment.
She is now in a long recovery process. She can't take any medicine that would affect her brain so that crosses out almost all pain medicine. And they still don't know if what she had was cancerous or will require some form of chemo. She has literally been through hell and back in less than 2 weeks.
As her friend told me the story this morning, I just wanted to cry. Acknowledging how precious this life is has never been so real. Understanding that we are literally given only so much time on this earth before we spend eternity with our Maker hasn't hit this hard in a while.
And what's more, it made me really take a second look at how precious the people are in my life. What if that was them? If they went into surgery, unsure of its success, would I be left wishing I had treating them better and loved them harder and let the small things go? Would I have wished I'd prayed against built up hostility that could've been resolved if we just talked, even if that made things hard for a bit?
It makes me want to fight for the things in my life I've wanted to let go of and run far away from.
It makes me want to make right things I know are currently not ok.
It makes me ridiculously thankful for each of you.
The Lord is so faithful, knowing what we need and when. This tumor with Rachel was no surprise. He really does have a beautiful plan. Please pray for her as she recovers from this surgery both physically and emotionally.
Don't run away from what really matters. Don't give up.
Fight.
And love harder than you ever have. Because before you know it, that love could be ice cold and you may not have a chance to let your God melt away the frigidness for you to tell the people that matter that they do.
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